Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

"Aw man, another post about friends?! You've got to be kidding!"

Nope, I'm not. This one is different though, well sort of. I'm not going to rant about how crappy my, "friends" are. I'm not too sure what this is going to be about, but we'll see.

My best friend, I love her to death, text me last night and told me she was going to the doctor today. Obviously I was extremely worried I told her to text me as soon as she got out. This afternoon when I got up, yes afternoon, I got a text from her letting me know the initial tests were fine. I was so relieved.

She posted on Facebook that she had an EKG and blood work done. Now when I see "EKG" and "blood work" I want to know what the heck is going on and if that person is okay. You don't just go to the doctor for a check up and leave with an EKG done and blood drawn.

Out of all 219 friends of hers on Facebook, I was the only one that commented on it. Her boyfriend was worried too and was texting her, but seriously two people out of all of your "close" friends actually care about your health?
That's messed up.

Now, as you all know, I suck at making friends. I'm extremely awkward and shy and social situations usually make me uncomfortable. Luckily the three girls I have met are really sweet and make the awkwardness subside a little bit, which I'm thankful for! (Thanks Lani, Renee and Kassy!! <3)

With that said, I feel like there are so many fake people in the Corps and in general. I'm one of those people that when I'm your friend, I'm in it till the end. There's no, "Oh well I'm friends with this person, so I can't be friends with you." Or "We're besties, but I'm going to talk about you behind your back."
If you're one of those, you basically just shot yourself in the foot because I will never be your friend, no matter what you say.

I expect my friends to be there for me when I need them, and I'll be there for you. You're having a bad day? I'll be over in two seconds, your husband deployed, I'll go get the ice cream. I expect you to do the same.

I don't need "fair weather" friends, I need best friends. I'm not one of those people that can only have one best friend, if I could have  like four or five BEST friends where I can tell you anything and trust 100% that you're not going to judge me or go tell everyone else, I'd be set.

So if you can't live up to my expectations, then let me know so I can move on to someone who actually respects my opinion and me.

This is what I want.^^^^